Sunday, August 28, 2011

A Year Of Strength VS. A Moment Of Weakness

My hands won't stop shaking. I haven't even been in Marquette for a week. Why does this have to happen right now. 
I'm nothing. 
Never will be. 
Useless. 
I feel unattached. 
I screwed up. Again. 
It's been one year since I made the decision to quit cutting. One of the hardest things I've ever done. It scared me. It was my safety net. At least if I was cutting it would take the thoughts of anything worse out of my head. Can I say I'm proud of what I've done. No. Sure it's been a year but I've had moments of weakness. I've screwed up. 
But I still say I'm recovering. If I didn't, what would I call myself...............a failure, 
Wouldn't surprise me. 
Again. 

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