When Worlds Collide

I feel ripped
A tear that leads straight through my mind
across the heart
and the little bit that's left of me just hangs there
one more tear and it's gone
I look to one side and there stands someone I love
That someone you look at in a certain way
as if their smile was there just to brighten your day
Switch
I look to the other side
and once again there stands someone I love
Someone who always tries to put a smile on my face
because he knows they've been getting rarer as the days tick by

In the past week and a half I've made both my girlfriend and my best friend cry. 
And honestly I don't know if I can do this anymore. I never wanted to be this person in their lives. I never wanted to bring anyone pain and stress, but look at this mess I'm making.
It leaves me shaking.
I just wish everyone could get along. I can't live without these people in my life but it also seems I can't live with them together. Everything just seems so filled with hate at the moment. And I just don't want to hear anything of it.
Somedays I feel like I just want to run away. That maybe If I left there would be no more reason for this. Yeah I would hurt people by leaving.
But even while I'm here I'm just hurting people
I can't do this to you two
I can't