I keep telling myself.

I keep telling myself
It will get better

I keep telling myself
This is normal

Not just me
But a part of everyone

We all have times like this

I keep telling myself
It's just a dream
But

Is it just a dream even
When it effects my reality?

I'm afraid to sleep
Afraid to sleep sober

Sometimes it feels like it will never be the same.
I miss dreaming about sunshine
and playtime
About starry nights and
flying kites

What happened to that mind
That serenity

How does this stop?
Does it ever