Breaking Boundaries

So today there was a Self Identity forum called "Who the #$%& are you?". I'm gonna have to say it was defiantly uplifting. There was someone on the panel who I could totally relate with. It's like it took a load off my chest to know someone was going through the same exact thing. She talked about how she dated guys in high school and grew up believing she was straight. But once she came to college she started dating a girl. Now she doesn't really know what to call herself or if it's a phase. I can totally relate.
I grew up being teased everyday of my life. A common insult was "she's totally gay" or "dike". Sure I didn't dress like all the other girls. So what. I dressed the way I wanted. My want for the teasing to stop covered up my feelings for years. At least thats what I'm guessing cause I didn't notice anything till college. Since I was called "gay" or "fag" on a daily basis it gave me the notion that being gay wasn't an option, why be something that I'm being ridiculed for already. To tell you the truth I never really had any feelings for guys or girls but I still had been in the straight role. But now I'm in college.
I know that phrase can lead people the wrong way. Everyones gonna think it's a phase or "experimentation". It's not. I've never had a crush in my life until now. I felt feelings I've never felt before. Is she the one meant for me? God I hope so cause I don't think I can live without her. But I'm scared to act on these feelings because I'm scared of coming out. I'm also scared that maybe this will be the only person that I've truly fell in love with even when they don't have a clue how I feel. And once she's gone will anybody else be the same. Girls? Guys? Anything?
Will anyone ever love me?