Maybe Someday

You were in my dreams last night. As if my everyday thought isn't already enough, my nights are also consumed of you.
I remember the day I gave you the address to this site. I made it seem as though I had forgotten what it was, while I quickly went and deleted something I had written about you.
I wish I had at least saved it somewhere. But now it's gone.

It was about that one night on the beach. We were all at Little Presque hoping for the northern lights.
They never showed, but the night sky alone did us justice.
For a second you laid your head on my shoulder.

If only you knew how easy it is for you to put a smile on my face.

I remember this dream I had of you this summer.
You told me you didn't want to talk to me anymore.
I was confused. All I wanted to do was talk.
I woke up crying. I actually woke up crying.

This one time you asked me a question.
You asked why I liked you.
I couldn't explain. I'd like to say I'm getting better at it.
I love the way you walk.
I love the way you talk.
I love the way you look at me when you laugh.
I love the way you move your arms.
I love your eyes.
Curly or straight hair.
With or without makeup.
Good or bad day.

I love everything about you.

You won my heart. Since the first day and the note.
When I said it was yours I wasn't lying.
Whether you wanted it or not.
And my heart is no normal prize to be won, you see
It holds and enormous amount of love. Enough love for the entire world but I rather give it to you.
So much that I've left none for myself.
Maybe if I had been confident.
Maybe if I had been more brave.
Things would be different.

But I am kept silent. There is no need for me to disrupt something that would lead you to someone better.
But to you, it will be as if nothing changed. And me, I'll just keep saying what you said.
Maybe Someday.